It's been a few weeks since I touched my blog. So, many thoughts and feelings have been brewing. I have gone to Istanbul which I will put up at some point. I loved Istanbul without a doubt. It had all the things a city girl could dream of but there is just no place like home. Over the last few weeks, I learned how to be sensitive to other people from other cultures because for the first time in my life I am the stick out like a sore thumb.
Ive always been the type A personality. Everything has to be perfect, everything has to be right. I can't let anyone see me sweat, I can't let anyone see my cry, I have to be tough as nails. I have to overachieve. On the other hand, I believe everything happens for a reason.Being overseas, has made me appreciate home so much. It has given me perspective about a lot of things in my life. There are so many amazing people who have just loved me from 7000 miles away, people i didn't fully appreciate when I was on their front doorstep. I loved my job and the impact i have had and I would love to do it again. I now understand the point of lesson plans and assessments. I understand why we have mounds of paperwork. But I know, I wouldn't have appreciated all of that if I hadn't come overseas.
So, I love being overseas but I can't wait to come home. I can't wait to celebrate holidays and events with my friends and families. Maybe it wasn't the lesson I hoped to learn but I did learn a lesson and I can say that I tried it. Not everything has to be perfect and its ok sometimes to say that things didn't work out at as you planned. A lesson is a lesson whether its good or bad.
Ive always been the type A personality. Everything has to be perfect, everything has to be right. I can't let anyone see me sweat, I can't let anyone see my cry, I have to be tough as nails. I have to overachieve. On the other hand, I believe everything happens for a reason.Being overseas, has made me appreciate home so much. It has given me perspective about a lot of things in my life. There are so many amazing people who have just loved me from 7000 miles away, people i didn't fully appreciate when I was on their front doorstep. I loved my job and the impact i have had and I would love to do it again. I now understand the point of lesson plans and assessments. I understand why we have mounds of paperwork. But I know, I wouldn't have appreciated all of that if I hadn't come overseas.
So, I love being overseas but I can't wait to come home. I can't wait to celebrate holidays and events with my friends and families. Maybe it wasn't the lesson I hoped to learn but I did learn a lesson and I can say that I tried it. Not everything has to be perfect and its ok sometimes to say that things didn't work out at as you planned. A lesson is a lesson whether its good or bad.
Wow you sound a little homesick, it will pass. The great thing is that you have learned to appreciate your loved ones more than ever. Your family without a doubt must feel the same as you....missing you tremendously. I won't say try not to think so much about not being home for the holidays, because you won't undoubtedly won't. I will advise that you try thinking perhaps about making someone there smile. This experience seems to be opening your heart to feelings that you may not have known extended and its okay just continue to journal and express yourself. Try to enjoy your holidays, perhaps you can introduce Turkey to America they way you celebrate holidays. Try something small. Looking forward to reading more of your adventure.
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